The "friendship" syndrome has again stricken me. All those people who pretended to be my "friends" are now here, back on track. They'll be coming here, maybe after 10 minutes, to ask me if I want to go out with them, with gleaming smiles, contrary to what they really feel about going out with me. Grr. Can't they just say that they don't want to be with me so it's finally over?

Many people tell me this when I open up about my dilemma; "Maybe they really want to be your friend, you were just thinking negatively. How'd you know they don't want to be?" They talk all about me when I'm not with them. Talking 'bout how I pretend to not like what they like, how boring I am, or how judgmental I am when I'm with them. (Some snakes in the grass just spilled the beans.)

So how would you think would I be really true to them when they're not to me? It's hard to refuse when they ask me, knowing that there's no good reason I could make up. But now, maybe I have one. "Ok, I'll stay with you 'til 7pm, then I'll play basketball with my brother."

I don't care if they talk about me, because someone told me once, "You can live without them." and another, "You won't lose anything when you're not with them, 'coz you've got billions of stuff inside that big brain of yours that'll lead you to majestic heights. And not even their greatest envy can bring you down." Thank you to those people who understand & believe.

God Bless Everyone! Happy Weekend!

Lux in Domino!

-CJ