As I listen to Hannah Montana's song "True Friend", I thought awhile. Do I have any? True Friends who hang on to my ups and my downs? True Friends who will go to the end of the Earth till they find the things I need? I may have had some...But that was before. Now, I don't.

Every time my mother says "Yan, kaya wala kang kaibigan..." when I have tantrums, I can't help but cry. But why? I've had the bestest of friends before. I keep on asking myself, where did I go wrong? They all left me. Is it my fault?

Evette was one. She was my best friend since Grade 3. I was happy, contented with her. But when we were in Grade 4, she suddenly told us she would be leaving. The day she left, February 14, 2007, I cried from evening 'til dawn.

When we lost our connection with each other, I tried to move on. I had friends in Grade 5. Vemeni, Jedmeah, Alyssa, and Karissa. Again, I was happy. They gave me so many things on my birthday. Our friendship lasted till Grade 6. That was when we were separated when our class was divided into two sections. The movement was beneficial academically. And we get to visit each other during recess and lunch. Well, that was before fake stories ended up populating the 6th Grade. The fault of the Big D who is still ruining my life nowadays. As weeks passed, we began to develop different personalities and opinions that may have also caused the gap. We also didn't have a happy ending. Sad, isn't it?

But I tried my best to be happy in spite of all those. But let's go back to the question. Is it my fault? Maybe, a part of all the separations are. I'll accept that.

Well, the truth lies only in the hands of the One above. I'll just ask him. Meanwhile, I'll just be happy with my life. Haha, Open ended? Wait for more.

Lux In Domino!

-CJ